Back to walking again :) How happy that makes me!
It is the time I feel closest to God.
Being alone with God just enjoying His creation brings a smile to my heart that spreads to my head and brings me to a realization of who I am and who He is. I marvel at how great His love is. How deep His mercy and grace are. I am so in need of all three.
The scenic picture I have on my blog needs to be updated - the cul-de-sac is no longer. A new road has been forged and the views are breath-taking. I watched a sunset that captivated my vision. I could feel God's presence penetrate to earth with the parting of clouds and His sun beaming forth lightening like bolts in several directions at once. Vacant lots line the newly paved street. I was given privy to a splendid sight that I received as a gift especially made just for me. :) I wonder if God smiles at that thought when he sees His other children from other places enjoy the same sunset and think the same thing?
For me sunshine, warmth, mountains, views, trees and privacy bring the most inner contentment. There is a peace I feel deep inside when surrounded by these things.
When I find these things all together in one place - I don't want to leave.
When I think of "running away" that's the vision I have of where I want to go.
Yes I think of running away sometimes. Sometimes I feel so alone and life is so difficult that I don't think I can muster enough strength to go through another day. Sometimes I feel so privileged that I am surrounded by children and grandchildren who accept me and shower me with love that I can do nothing but smile and count myself blessed. Sometimes I dream of adventures...even at my age :) Sometimes I am content. Sometimes not. Sometimes open to God's leading - other times not. Sometimes I am strong and determined other times I am weak.
I wonder how God keeps up with all of those feelings and thoughts that swirl around in my head from day to day? His patience never wains.
For that I am also grateful!