Who am I? Have you asked yourself this question? Recently I have.
For not quite a year now I have found I could not answer the question. I more often would say to myself "I feel lost".
Sometimes I am peaceful inside - sometimes turbulent!
Sometimes I smile at the joy I feel - sometimes I can cry at the drop of a hat :)
Sometimes I have physcial energy - sometimes all I want to do is rest - even nap :)
Sometimes I soak up all that is going on around me - sometimes I talk non-stop - sometimes I just want to be alone (not lonely - just alone).
I find I don't know as much as I used to, don't dream as much, don't want the same things I used to.
So who am I? An energic soul tackling one task after the other? A happy go lucky kind of gal? The kind of woman who has understanding and wisdom therefore peace? OR am I someone not to count on for a good time (who knows I might sit there and not say a word)? Someone who is an 'outsider'? Am I mixed up inside or someone new inside?
I don't really know.
But there is one thing I do know for sure. I am God's. Knowing that one thing is enough.
I marvel at God's love for me. His patience with me. How He reaches into my life with a touch to let me know He is there sometimes just because I am in desperate need of Him sometimes just because He can. :) Even when I don't "feel" His presence I know He is aware of me.
So when I wonder "who am I?" and feel lost ......I say what is true. "I am God's" that is enough.